Good afternoon please HMID.
I am 21 years old and I’m the only child for my mother I’ve been a great child I’d say because I don’t give any trouble what so ever. I went to a very prominent high school in my parish passed all my subjects and went on to sixth form and also did great. The issue I’m having though is that I’m been verbally abused by my mother over the years she calls me a bi*ch tells countless amount of lies on me to her friends, at times I sit in my room and I can hear her on the phone lying to her friends as it regards to me. She has never told me that she loves me she has never told me that she’s proud of me. I’m a strong person and I smile no matter what. Nobody knows what I’m going through because I don’t talk about it, sometimes I sit and I talk to God. I work very hard to make her proud I try my best to please her but I constantly get bashed and get called names. My best is never good enough for her. I normally work but due to the pandemic I am out of a job and she usually works as well. I try my best not to waste anything in the house because I know the situation. I basically do everything in the house (clean,cook) the whole none yards I do it. Once my mother was on the phone speaking to someone and she said something that was untrue and I told her that that’s untrue and she told me point blank that she does not care and that she is my mother so she has all right to tell a lie on me, I was so shocked. Anyways I remain strong and I will continue to press on until my last breath, I’ve had suicidal thoughts multiple times but the Lord spoke to me and told me no that’s not the way and hence why I’m here.