Good afternoon pinky. Please hide my identification. So I have a major issue and I’m seeking opinions on it. Some might say I’m an idiot bcuz their not the one in the situation so they won’t understand how stressful it is. And please for those with the toxic comments just ignore if u have nothing constructive to say.
So I’m a working grad student. Been friends with a wonderful young lady for just under three years. In that time she has influenced my life positively in major ways as a friend. We started being intimate about 11 months now since her a*shole bf insisted on beating her like his child. Since the lock November I started staying by her place a lot more often as she myself and her sister used to go a lot of places and hang out a lot. In February we decided to just chill together n wine up to soca n vibe. Long story is that we ended up f***g like rabbits for most of that weekend. It happened again a couple times but I decided I really want to be with my friend.
After we discussed it she let me know she wants to be with me but enjoy the bond we sharing now but after corona if I hurt her she going to kill me bcuz we tied to practically everything in each other’s life and she won’t be able to recover. I think I have been in love with her for awhile.
Here is where shit gets messy
We both have a little ki*kiness to us and we have had s*x with her while we watched a particular video of an older lady that is the best vagina Iv ever had and one of the creamiest. No identifying features for the lady was in the video as I’m strongly against that kinda thing. Me n this older lady was doing our thing about seven years ago and it stopped bcuz she migrated as she is a professional. The woman I’m in love with said her mom was to return to the island until stuff settles in the United States. I visited a few weeks ago after work kept me busy. When I walked in the house she told me she mom was sleeping. After I showered I went to sleep in the sisters room only for someone to come wake me for dinner. It was her mom. Pinky is the damn older lady that I used to sleep with.
I was so stressed I barely ate n sleep out the whole evening. I don’t want to lose my girl. Wtf do I do