IT’S A THIN LINE & A VERY THIN ONE AT THAT.
A mother’s love should be felt from the womb, in the developmental stages that womb is all we know thus the second we exit her warmness we yern for her smell, for her touch. It’s a mother’s warmth that sustains us & when that love doesn’t love us, oh my God when that love doesn’t love us, no matter how strong we think we are more times than not it’s the only pain most of us can never bounce back from. I mean that’s my mother. Why doesn’t she love me? Why can’t she love me? Is she broken? Did someone hurt her like she’s now hurting me? What makes her say the things she does to me? What makes her do the things she does to me? Does it bring her pain or joy to hurt me? Doesn’t she see that I’m hurting deep within? I mean can’t she feel my pain? She’s my f***g mother for crying out loud! Should i care if she is broken? Why should her hurt hurt me? If i was a mother i wouldn’t want my child to feel the hurt i endured so why can’t my mother think the way i do? Why do i love her? Why can’t she love me back? I have every reason to hate HER, i want to hate her, i tell myself i hate her, i tell her i hate her but deep down within i will always love the love that should love me even if it never will. F**K YOU MOTHER I MEAN I LOVE YOU MOTHER.