Emerging From The Shadows!
As 2013 came to a close I decided to do the usual year end introspection. I needed to confront my inner demons, examine the things that have held me back and celebrate the uniqueness I possess.
Years ago I pledged to serve the ultimate master of all. Though it’s been challenging, it found me straying away from his will as I understood it. I was compelled to reflect on the life I’ve lived and continue to live and the choices I’ve made. I was living a life that men deemed abominable while others like me saw it as a blessing only few will ever be able to experience.
Whilst it was not an exemplary life at times, I felt closer to my creator than I could ever be and though some moments found me on my knees, crying, struggling I asked for help and it was given. God’s mercy continued despite not fulfilling my end of the deal.
As time progressed and the revolution became apart of the evolution of men. I became more comfortable in my own skin as the status quo was being redefined, and it was time for me to be honest, truthful not the world but myself.
Over the last three years I’ve represented several Dancehall heavyweights with distinct pleasure and humility but while doing so I was subjected to the torture that the industry is historically known to carry.
Dancehall has always stood firm in its belief against Homosexuality. As a practitioner within the industry i have had to endure the blatant hypocritical stance over the years but if I’m to ever be who I truly am and be truly comfortable with myself, in my soul, I must take a stance and speak against injustice, Hate Lyrics, discrimination and anything that may seek to reduce the life of one and their beliefs.
I Rickardo Smith more popularly known as Shuzzr has been a victim, is still a victim of discrimination because of my sexual orientation. I refuse to let my life be subjected to the old colonial thought and embrace a new era of where men are equal irrespective of their beliefs, lifestyle and choices.
I seek not societal approval as its neither desired or required. As i reflect and think of the life i have one thing remains constant ‘It’s a Life and Right To Fight For’.